Bye my ugly 17

They said the 18th birthday has a special meaning and yeah I was very excited for my 18th birthday recently

I don't have a big big celebration or even a party, just a simple meet up with close friends

17 is really a long year and I can say I'm really tired and quite disappointed of it

I sat for SPM examination, prepared so hard for it, started to worry about my future and what the worst thing in this year is simply, I lost one of my bestfriends

Things just happened so sudden that I don't know what to do

Try to imagine a person just distanced herself from you, no text or calls anymore, the conversations between both of you no longer interesting (I mean like just simply HI or BYE or even THANKS) and make you happy when you received it

I really don't know what I did and the conversations between both of us just became lesser and lesser

untill one day I knew that there's people who talked bad behind me, and she was one of it too

That feeling like you were betrayed by a friend just so hurt and upset you

I once treated you like my own sister and why you did that? 

I don't hate her, I don't dislike her, I just don't want to have any relationship with her anymore, it's just so disappointing 

At least now those who left are real friends ( I think so?) 

I learnt not to simply trust anybody cz someday you'll get it

What a sad 17 I know right

Anyway at least I learnt something. So becareful when you decided to fully put your trust on someone, even though it's your close one.